The IcePrincess Blog

Poem - Give U My All

2009-08-12T07:12:00.001-08:00

I want to give you my ALL
But are you truly ready?
What I have to give is BEYOND special
What I have to give deserves to be Cherished
What I have to give is Unconditional
But can you handle that?
No time for games
No time for deceit
No time for drama
No time for abuse
Either you're ready for the challenge
or...
you're just wasting time and space
Make a choice...the Right choice
So many have made the Wrong choice
and they now are full of Regrets
because they Now realize
what I gave to them was BEYOND special
what I gave to them they did not Cherish
What I gave to them was something that will be very hard to come across again
They couldn't handle that...but maybe you will be different
Because I am ready to give you my ALL.

-- IcePrincess aka Kesha

Poem - Loving in Vain

2009-08-12T07:11:00.002-08:00

All I know is Hurt...

All I know is Pain...

Sometimes I wonder...

If I am Loving in Vain...

I give sooo much...

Yet get so little in return...

Makes one want to just give up....

Turn my heart to cold stone...

So paranoid...

So scared to Love again...

Because in the back of my mind...

I know that I'm extremely Fragile...

My heart scarred and battered to Death...

That the slightest sign of another lie, another game, another betrayal...

Will permanently KILL what's left of my heart and leave me Forever jaded.

-- IcePrincess aka Kesha

Poem - Kind of Love I Need

2009-08-12T07:03:00.002-08:00

Love me like you've never loved before
Hold me as tight as possible
Kiss me endlessly
Make love to me passionately
Hold my hand and never let go
Don't only tell me you love me
Show it with your actions
24/7/365

That is the kind of Love I need.

--- IcePrincess aka Kesha

Updating...

2009-08-08T08:29:00.004-08:00

Will be updating this blog this weekend. I finally got me a new WORKING laptop (YAY!!!). A lot has been going on in my life the past several months....more good then bad. Not so many rants like last time, lol! New posts coming soon and I might change the blog layout too while I'm at it...hmmm...

~IcePrincess~

Keep It Real With Me - Current Mood: Annoyed

2009-05-27T17:49:00.002-08:00

"Be 100% real with me...I'm a big girl, I can handle it. You ain't gotz to lie Craig, you ain't gotz to lie....smdh!"

Don't You Just Hate It?...

2009-05-27T17:19:00.010-08:00

Don't you just hate it when you find a guy that has damn near all the qualities you are looking for in a man, but both you and him are not in the position to be seeking a relationship right now? Dammit!

Don't you just hate it when you're chatting with a person on Instant Messenger, and either you step away from the computer for a lil bit or your computer is acting up (ie, freezing), they want to get all bitchy with you talking bout "I guess you don't want to talk to me. Sorry for bothering you." type of bullshyt....WTF?! I was only gone for 60 damn seconds! Men are waaaaaaaaay to damn emotional nowadays! Can ya say "Bitchassness"? LOL!

Don't you just hate it when you're only just "talking" to someone...nothing serious...and they want to get jealous because they realize they are not the ONLY dude that is trying to holla at you? Muthafucka, I'm single, sexy, and free to do whatever and whoever the hell I want. It's calling D-A-T-I-N-G, meaning more than one. Take a number buddy! LOL! It is hypocritical too, because they know full well they are kicking it with other females. So if I don't have a problem with that, then you shouldn't either?

Don't you just hate it when a guy acts like he's single, but he's really friggin' MARRIED?! Triflin' azz mofos!

Don't you just hate it when some random dude sends you a message for the FIRST time, with no prior interactions, giving you HIS number talking about "You so sexy baby, give me a call..."? Um....no fool, I am not calling your azz. I don't know you like that. Men like that look desperate and stupid as hell. It's a HUGE turn off....Lame muthafuckaz!

Will add more to this as I think of them, stay tuned...lol! Feel free to add your own in the comment section.

I Am More Than A Woman...

2009-05-27T16:51:00.014-08:00

I am more than just a woman. All I hear from dudes daily is how beautiful or sexy I am. Only focusing on the outer part of me, claiming they want to "get to know me"...when they just really trying to get to know what's under my panties. Dudes can't even have a friggin' NORMAL conversation with a woman anymore, always trying to make it sexual. And I'm getting pretty damn tired of it. Well, to that I say:

I am a Mother

I am a Daughter

I am a Sister

I am an Aunt

I am Kind-hearted

I am Artistic

I am Intelligent

I am a Smart-ass

I am Funny

I am Altruistic

I am Open-minded

I am Multi-talented

I am Entrepreneurial

I am a great Listener

I am Shy

I am Trustworthy

I am Creative

I am Ambitious

I am a Computer Nerd

I am Mature

I am Supportive

I am Inquisitive

I am Romantic

I am Affectionate

I am Adventurous

I am Spiritual

I am Special...and I am just me. I'm not perfect, and have MANY flaws. There is more to me than just my looks. I just wish more people would realize that.

~IcePrincess~

Back Again...

2009-05-27T16:33:00.004-08:00

Lawd, I need to get in the habit of updating this blog. I've been so lazy about it. Plus, I've been going through a lot...and you know how that goes. But I've decided that I'm going to put forth more effort into my blog, and other things that I do. I'm definitely going to use this as my outlet and release all that is bottle up inside of me. I need to vent...badly. I was hesitant about putting all my business out there all on the internet., but I think I've found a way around that...lol! So you will be seeing A LOT of random ish on here....some positive, some negative (most of it will be posted in my new Category "Random Thoughts"). I've been moody a lot lately so don't be alarmed by some of the things I will be posting. Just trying to release all this energy. Maybe it will help me to cope. *shrugs*

~IcePrincess~

My Fantasy Men #1 - Barack Obama

2009-04-11T17:58:00.004-08:00

These are the type of men I adore/lust/fantasize over. So in no particular order...

President Barack Obama

What I find so sexy about Obama, is that he represents the TOTAL package of what I (and most women) look for in a man. The SEXIEST president we have ever had!

Crush On You...

2009-04-11T16:20:00.009-08:00

I can't believe that I'm feeling like this. Makes me think I'm going crazy or something! I've got a crush (that keeps growing each day) on someone. I'm not going to say any names or anything. But I just feel so silly, like I'm too old to be having crushes (with the exception of celebrity crushes) on a guy. I haven't had a crush on someone is such a long azz time... *blushing*

I've known this person from back in the day. But haven't been around him in YEARS. We actually "bumped" into each other online. The other reason why I feel so weird about it, is because back in our early school days...I could NOT STAND his azz for real...LOL! If someone had told me back in my younger years that I would end up liking this dude, I would have cursed them the fugg out!

But I must admit....*whispers* he's become a really sexy azz man! And he's been on my mind A LOT lately, even had some dreams about him (not in a obsessive type of way). Lawd.....smh....LOL! I feel like a lil school girl right now. Hopefully he doesn't see this post. I don't think he will, because he doesn't know about my blog....I think.

Do yall think I should let him know how I feel, or should I just keep it to myself? I mean...dude lives in another state on the other damn side of the country...so I doubt anything will pop off between me and him like that. Plus, he is arrogant/cocky as hell, and would probably get a big head and shyt if I told him I'm feeling him. Oh shyt...that's telling too much...let me shutup otherwise he will know i'm talking bout his azz, lol!

Anywayz....aarrgghh....I don't like feeling like this...it's....weird, to say the least!

FaceBook IS Addicting!!

2009-04-11T16:07:00.007-08:00

OMG...tell me why I've been on Facebook the past couple days for HOURS on end? LOL! I've been a Facebook user since it first launched back in like 2004(when it was only for college students). But wasn't really that into it. Back then, the thing that was poppin' online was MySpace. However, lately I decided I was going to explore all the features that Facebook now has and....I've heard other people mention how addicting Facebook can be, but thought they were just exaggerating. Well they sure were not lying about that! LOL! Hopefully I can curb my FB addiction, because it will lead to me being unproductive. I've got A LOT of things I need to set in motion in order to reach that higher level, you know what I mean? Or maybe I should just be smart about it, and somehow facilitate FB in reaching my goals....

But that is another blog in of itself. Toodles!

P.S. Oh yeah, I am on Facebook right now as I type this out...LMAO!

What Am I Listening To? - St. Lunatics

2009-03-26T12:58:00.006-08:00

I've always loved the St. Lunatics, and I'm so glad to see them back out. Their new song is FIIIRREEE! Can't stop listening to it. They are bringing back real Hip Hop in my opinion. It is sorely needed right now. Each verse in the song is great, but my most favorite verses are from City Spud, Murphy Lee, and Nelly. Check out the official video for the song below.

Been M.I.A.

2009-03-25T23:11:00.003-08:00

Dang...I haven't posted anything in a long minute. Actually A LOT has been going on, but I will update yall on that later since I will have some downtime all today. Anywayz...let me take my behind to bed. Nite!

My Creative Work I've Done

2009-03-14T14:20:00.004-08:00

I will be posting all of my artwork (drawings, graphic designs, sculpting, etc.) and my creative writing stories (short and long) on this blog to share with you all. Each title listed below will link to a post displaying that piece. I am considering to start doing freelance work, just haven't decided how to go about doing it yet. When I do, I will post that info for anyone interested. Enjoy!

CD Cover Design

My Graphic Work - CD Cover Design

2009-03-14T14:12:00.004-08:00

This is a design I did for a friend for his CD cover. This was done in February 2009. Which is my most recent work, because I hadn't done anything graphic related in a long while. So this gave me some practice, and made realized how much I missed doing graphic design.

Who is IcePrincess?

2009-03-14T13:12:00.021-08:00

I'm not exactly good at these "About Me" type of stuff. That's why I rather you all just send in questions and I just answer. But I will give it a go and try to give you the basic stuff...

I came from two parents who are from St. Thomas, Virgin Islands. They were both in the military, and were stationed in Frankfurt, Germany where I ended up being born on March 22, 1984 (Aries in the house!). After I turned 2 years old, we moved to the U.S. and lived in Columbus, GA for several years. Then we got stationed in Honolulu, Hawaii in 1991. That was the best place we ever lived! Especially as a kid growing up. Anywayz...my parents separated in 1994. My dad went back to GA, and my mom had the insane idea to move us up to Alaska! So Alaska we went. Let me tell you, I was really pissed off about it, and still to this day.

So I spent most of my years here in Anchorage, AK (15 years total, off and on). Was in Atlanta from 2003-2007 for school, then back in Alaska from 2007-2008...then had went down to the Virgin Islands Nov. 2008 with my fiance (who is now an ex). Shyt didn't work out while I was down there, so I just recently came back up to Alaska Feb. 2009. Didn't really have any other option. So obviously I'm not too happy right now, and am getting tired of being bounced around all over the place. Hopefully that will end soon.

I attended Clark Atlanta University from 2003-2004 majoring in Computer Information Systems. Although I LOVE computers and am very savvy with it...I realized I didn't really care too much for this particular major (it was really boring), so I transferred to the Art Institute of Atlanta. Art and writing has always been my passion, and one of my major talents. I had started off with Media Arts & Animation, then changed my major AGAIN to Graphic Design. I was there for two years, and was doing great in school. In the beginning of my last year, I found out I would not be able to afford to continue with my education. Was going through a lot of financial problems, so unfortunately I had to drop out. Hopefully, I will be able to go back and finish up that last year.

I'm a proud mother of a very handsome, dynamic, and intelligent 6 year old boy...my son Desmond. I also have a nephew that will soon be two years old, who is like a son to me. That is my homie for real! LOL! I have a younger sister who is 21 years old. I wish I had some older brothers too.

Let's see...what else? I'm 5 feet, 5 inches tall, chinky eyes (which I think is my best feature). I used to have a banging azz body, but I've kinda let myself go over the past two years (stress and depression). But I've been working out a lot lately and starting to eat better, and the weight has been going back down (I'm down from 194 lbs to my current weight of 176 lbs), but I still have like 50 pounds more to go to get back to the size I was and before I will be satisfied again...LOL!

I'm a very down-to-earth, laid back type of person. I have what's called an "ambivert" personality, meaning I can be both introverted and extroverted depending on who I am around. I am very open-minded, creative, kind-hearted (I think I am too nice sometimes though...but that's a whole 'nother post!), loyal, trustworthy...and all that good stuff. I have my flaws also, and I never pretend to be perfect.

I'm at a point in my life, where I'm at a crossroads and don't really know in which direction to go. Have a lot built up inside of me, and didn't really have no way to release it. So that's why I decided to start a blog...to vent, express myself, etc.

Anywayz...that's all for now. If you want to know anything else, send an email to me with your questions. And I will answer them on here (as long as your question is not out of line...and you already know what I mean by that *raises eyebrow at the men*).

Adios,
IcePrincess

Rapper Lil' Kim = Michael Jackson 2.0??

2009-03-11T22:03:00.007-08:00

How da hell do you go from looking like this...

...To this?

I will never understand why those who were already friggin' beautiful/sexy to begin with (i.e., Lil' Kim, Michael Jackson)...would butcher up there damn faces and bodies like that. So sad. Don't get me wrong. I love Lil' Kim, and I'm glad to see her doing something great on t.v. .....however, somebody needs to sit her azz down and tell her to quit with all this plastic surgery because she is starting to look Latoya Jackson-ish! And that is sooooo not a good thing. In the words of Tyrone (JD's personal assistant)..."That Ain't It!"

The Countdown Till Spring Time...5..4..3....

2009-03-11T14:47:00.008-08:00

Ugh...I can not wait till all this retarded snow is GONE! I truly hate winters. I mean...what the hell is the purpose of snow anyway? *sighs*

And Alaska's weather acts like it don't know what it wants to do. Snow keeps melting, then it dumps the snow back on us, and repeats over and over. And to think, just several weeks back, I was living in the damn Virgin Islands enjoying the beautiful sunny weather and beaches. Man...Life is a BITCH! smdh....

My Aaliyah Fan Made Video - "Beats 4 Da Streets"

2009-03-11T14:33:00.000-08:00

Once a Cheater, always a Cheater???

2009-03-11T14:30:00.001-08:00

"Once a Cheater, always a Cheater?"

This is something I've been contemplating lately, and I wanted to get everyone's opinion on. If in a relationship that you have been in for a long time with that person whom you love very much, you find out that they were cheating on you and you immediately break up with them. After being caught, they say that the other person never meant anything to them, that they made a mistake, and that they want to work things out with you claiming they will never cheat again. What would you do or have done personally in this type of situation? I would like to get the honest opinion of everyone, males and females. Thanks!

Does Life suck or do I just suck at Life???

2009-03-11T14:26:00.002-08:00

**This post was originally posted on my Myspace blog on Feb. 27th, 2009.**

Why does it always seem like when I try to take 2 steps forward in my life, I always get knocked back 10 steps?

It's to the point that I'm too scared to go in any direction for fear of failure, because I know that anything I try...something real bad ends up happening to me. How do I know that? Because it's been that way for the past 8 years.

I know they say that it's just God's way of testing me, but dammit...I'm tired of all the tests! It's to the point where it's seriously becoming too overwhelming for me. I'm TIRED...So tired! I just want some peace of mind in my life. I don't even remember the last time I was genuinely happy. Every aspect of my life I feel that I have failed miserably in...financially, education, motherhood,relationships, health, socially...everything. The only thing that I am proud of is my son, but I feel like I have failed him.

Most people, even ones I'm close to don't even know half the craziness I have been through in my life. I'm a very private person, and I try to not put all my business out there. So they can't comprehend why I feel this way. If only you knew...

People keep telling me it's going to get better but it NEVER does. And that's not me trying to think negative, that's just been the Reality of the situation regardless of how hopeful and positive I've tried to be. Yes I know that a lot of people are struggling also all over the world, some might have it worse than me...but not to be rude...but I'm not living their life...I'm living MY life. I still have to worry about and deal with MY problems. So being told that doesn't make a difference to me, it doesn't make things BETTER for me. Did anyone consider that maybe I'M one of the people in that group that is having it the worst? Plus it doesn't even make sense to say some ish like that because of course there is always someone that is going to outdo somebody elses problems, and then the roles will eventually reverse.

Am I cursed or something? Did I do something so fucked up in a past life, that i'm now paying for those mistakes and dealing with bad karma in this present life? Geez...

It's like I know what I want to do in life, and what I need to get to that point. It's just these damn obstacles. I use to always fight for what I want no matter the obstacle, because I'm a natural warrior (Aries), but my strength to fight is getting weaker as time goes by. My optimism on life is slowly starting to dim.

In less than a month I will be 25 years old. I reflect on where my life is right now and I look at my peers around me, and see where I could have been in life...and it frustrates me that I still ended up in the same jacked up predicament that i was in years ago, DESPITE the fact that I've been probably trying way HARDER than most (I damn sure ain't no slacker). It's like all of my efforts are going down the drain one by one. And my faith in things getting better is now almost none existent.

Not to say I'm going to stop trying and completely give up. I have no choice but to keep trying, at least for my son. But I just don't see things getting any better for me. Like I've reached a plateau and can no longer rise up any higher.

I don't know...

I don't know...

What Am I Listening To? - Last Chance

2009-03-11T14:03:00.011-08:00

One of my favorite songs that is out right now is Ginuwine's new single "Last Chance".I think Ginuwine is about to make a HUGE comeback and OMG...I am so excited! Not only because I'm a big G fan, but because I think real, authentic R&B is coming back. The R&B genre has been suffering for awhile now, so music like this is much appreciated.

This song is classic Ginuwine style, but it should be no surprise because on this album he is working with Timbaland and B. Cox again. Very smart move G! Anyways, I can't get enough of this song. If you haven't heard it, view the video below. If you like it, make sure you request this shyt like crazy on the radio, so that real talent and music gets supported. Ginuwine, show these young bucks how it's really supposed to be done!

Oh yeah, and he just shot the video for this song, so it should be premiering very soon on t.v. *doing my happy dance* (Update 3/27/09...the video just debuted...check it out below!)

P.S. Dayum, Ginuwine still looks just as sexy as the day he first came out back in the 90s....mmmhhmmm...

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2009-03-11T03:55:00.001-08:00

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